Following up from yesterday.

Firstly, I want to say thank you for allowing me a place to be honest in our daily struggles. Yesterday was one of those scream at the sky, punch the walls kind of days, and it needed to happen. I know I spend a lot of time trying to stay stoic enough to get through the day that I don't really acknowledge the ugly emotions that I should be dealing with on a more regular basis. I appreciate all of the messages of support, even as I hit a low point personally.

Secondly, I wanted to clarify that while faith has become a bit of a battle for me in the last few months, I normally do find comfort in scripture. The only time I find it frustrating is in trying to explain away Aberdeen's suffering. When it comes to finding strength in the midst of hard times, or pretty much anything else, please quote away. I didn't mean to run anyone off with my fury, but I did want to express that trying to explain to me how her struggle is somehow fair or warranted just isn't helpful right now. I am working to balance my recent experiences with what I've always known about God, but I believe this will be a long, messy process.

Today has been a much better day. Abby finished another almost 24 hours of EEG without additional seizures. While we're obviously glad that her seizures aren't more frequent, it's a little frustrating that they can never catch what she's doing to better understand her specific seizures and how best to address them. Oh well. She is vomiting less today and has been much less fussy. I've gotten lots of sweet smiles and have enjoyed seeing her awake more than she has been in a couple of days. Lots of tests are being run again to see if any specific problems can be pinpointed, but for today at least, I am just going to enjoy my sweet little princess.